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kd7sovPart 1, though unlabeled as such, is here at his journal.
Why does Felix think the way he thinks? Part of it, as discussed the other day, is because of his element. Another significant part is connected to his life experiences.
As some of you may have noticed, early!Felix has undergone some significant development in his time at Milliways. In the beginning I was aiming for "rather timid", tempered by the fact that Bar seems to have a calming effect on him. I'm not sure how much of that is his ordinary state, and how much is due to being unexpectedly flung into a series of new circumstances. It couldn't last too very long, though: once Saturos started training him, he wouldn't stand for timidity. Over only a couple of months, Felix adopted a gruffer, more focused manner that he will have, in some degree, for probably the remainder of his life.
At about the same time, he started to gain access to his Psynergy, and thus become attuned to his element. Besides encouraging the traits that are directly connected with Earth, this had the effect of reinforcing his most common thought patterns of the time - Earth being the element of stability. Because of the particularmillicanonical way Psynergy works, combined with an expedition to see the encroaching void, he also became firmly convinced that his world needed saving. He didn't, at that time, feel any particular urgency to go out and save it himself, mainly because most of the people around him seemed to be doing what they could. Although many leaders on his world have Earth-affinity, it's generally considered unwise to challenge a Fire person who wants to be in charge.
Felix's particular impetus for personally ensuring that the world be saved came some time between when the Mercury and Venus lighthouses were lit. I don't know for certain what the specific trigger was, as there were several things happening at roughly the same time - Jenna becoming willing to listen to him, the group starting to fall apart, finding Sheba - any one of which could have been the cause. Whatever the reason, from that point on he was fully committed to the quest. Once he reaches this point in Milliways he will also be very prone to trying to save others' worlds if he thinks they need it.
Once all the lighthouses were lit and Alchemy was restored, Felix's major goal changed from making the world safe to keeping it that way. As he saw it, the best way to do that was to keep moving, never staying in the same place for too long, both to stay flexible and to increase the chances that he would hear about a crisis in time to avert it. It's possible that he became rather depressed and a litle masochistic at this point - an extension of "I'd like to settle down, but it wouldn't be the best thing, so I won't. Therefore, whatever I'd like, I won't get." (This is one reason I don't expect to play him during this period.)
I don't know, at this point, what pulled him out of this. I suspect that Sheba coming of age was involved. What I do know for certain is that when Sheba died, about five years after the lighthouses were lit and two or so years before late!Felix showed up at Milliways, he plunged deeply into depression. His devotion to his world kept him from suicide, but he spent most of his time avoiding people and those places that would remind him of her.
I have an idea that someone - probably either his sister or Mia - tracked him down after a while of this and told him to wake up. Which he did, but slowly - Milliways, and the realization that it wasn't (entirely) a dream, helped an awful lot, but he didn't get a door for several more months.
Why does Felix think the way he thinks? Part of it, as discussed the other day, is because of his element. Another significant part is connected to his life experiences.
As some of you may have noticed, early!Felix has undergone some significant development in his time at Milliways. In the beginning I was aiming for "rather timid", tempered by the fact that Bar seems to have a calming effect on him. I'm not sure how much of that is his ordinary state, and how much is due to being unexpectedly flung into a series of new circumstances. It couldn't last too very long, though: once Saturos started training him, he wouldn't stand for timidity. Over only a couple of months, Felix adopted a gruffer, more focused manner that he will have, in some degree, for probably the remainder of his life.
At about the same time, he started to gain access to his Psynergy, and thus become attuned to his element. Besides encouraging the traits that are directly connected with Earth, this had the effect of reinforcing his most common thought patterns of the time - Earth being the element of stability. Because of the particular
Felix's particular impetus for personally ensuring that the world be saved came some time between when the Mercury and Venus lighthouses were lit. I don't know for certain what the specific trigger was, as there were several things happening at roughly the same time - Jenna becoming willing to listen to him, the group starting to fall apart, finding Sheba - any one of which could have been the cause. Whatever the reason, from that point on he was fully committed to the quest. Once he reaches this point in Milliways he will also be very prone to trying to save others' worlds if he thinks they need it.
Once all the lighthouses were lit and Alchemy was restored, Felix's major goal changed from making the world safe to keeping it that way. As he saw it, the best way to do that was to keep moving, never staying in the same place for too long, both to stay flexible and to increase the chances that he would hear about a crisis in time to avert it. It's possible that he became rather depressed and a litle masochistic at this point - an extension of "I'd like to settle down, but it wouldn't be the best thing, so I won't. Therefore, whatever I'd like, I won't get." (This is one reason I don't expect to play him during this period.)
I don't know, at this point, what pulled him out of this. I suspect that Sheba coming of age was involved. What I do know for certain is that when Sheba died, about five years after the lighthouses were lit and two or so years before late!Felix showed up at Milliways, he plunged deeply into depression. His devotion to his world kept him from suicide, but he spent most of his time avoiding people and those places that would remind him of her.
I have an idea that someone - probably either his sister or Mia - tracked him down after a while of this and told him to wake up. Which he did, but slowly - Milliways, and the realization that it wasn't (entirely) a dream, helped an awful lot, but he didn't get a door for several more months.
